Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I don’t feel like Superwoman today. Lately, I’ve felt like Superwoman, but today I do not. That’s a very dragging feeling to realize you don’t feel amazing today. It ends up being a day that leads no where. I could force myself to clean something or pay the bills or cook something or just get up and do something, but it is really hard when the shadows are there…I don’t feel like superwoman today. I don’t feel like writing, cleaning or even watching television. When I don’t feel like superwoman, I’m quick to remember all the things I have failed at recently rather than all the successes I have had in the past couple months. I don’t like this feeling. And I know sleep isn’t the solution, but really it is all I want to do. Sleep to avoid responsibilities. Sleep to avoid shame. Sleep to hopefully wake up Superwoman again.